ew.

Piece of Me.

It's still hard for me to grasp the fact that Syltra's been eliminated. The notion of the show is hugely dependant on public voting, so basically as contestants, we can only try our best and put our heart into each of our performances.. at the end of the night, it's your call. So what do you guys think happened on Wednesday?? Not enough votes. Simple.

Now on to the next question.. why? In my opinion(not like it matter much anyway), the public were complacent. Oh, I guess many others will vote. You see, you can't take the risk. You can't afford to. Like what happened to some of the Top 24 finalists.. oh, I'm sure the judges will save him/her on lah! Idol don't work that way. Exhibit A! *points at self* hahahahahaha!!!


But aiyah, there's more to life than this.

I hate this part right here..

I'm missing my fellow Idols. I miss having key check session + vocal training with Ann and Indra, choreography lessons with Zaki and most importantly, I miss the hair and make up people.




I miss hady.

And the beat goes on..

Did a review on how the record industry's tanking.. you know, due to widespread piracy and consumer's preference for low profit digital singles over albums(i.e iTunes).. and it got me thinking. If music lovers are not willing to purchase albums nowadays, why not bring the music to them? Meaning, more live shows, thus creating more cross media opportunities. It's already happening.

Here's my plan.. record a demo with the songs I've written so far, do more covers, have a showcase at maybe the outdoor theatre @ esplanade? The plan is to have female musicians throughout the entire project. Yep, there's gonna be a whole lot of estrogen on the set! Haha. It's really easier said than done so, I'm gonna bust my ass to make this happen. It's about time to make shit happen for myself. Sick and tired of trying to fit into somebody else's template.. If you believe in the power of prayer, pray for me. Think peace, everyone! :)





Vision looks inward and becomes duty. Vision looks outward and becomes inspiration. Vision looks upward and becomes faith.

I've Already Won.

Hello everyone! Yes, not to worry I'm still alive. Since the elimination, life's been good. I mean, life goes on lah kan.. I've came a long way and there's no other better way to leave. I feel like I've got soo much more to give, but at the end of the day, the decision isn't mine. Do I feel like I deserve that spot? Hell yeah I do. But as I said earlier, the decision isn't mine. I'm not gonna lie, I feel extremely hurt that the judges didn't think I'm worth saving. But I guess this industry isn't for the oversensitive.. nothing personal, it's just showbiz. I know I'm legally binded to shut my trap but I can't help what I feel. Some voices just cannot be suppressed.

I got over the whole elimination thing over 2 hours of Simpang with family and friends. We had a mini celebration and it was so much fun. As usual, Simpang heals all wounds. Thank you Sharezan, Mizie, Munirah, Maressah, Nadiah, Nad for being my rock throughout this entire Idol journey.. yall are my rock, the very reason why I sing. *sob. So back to what I was saying.. I stuffed myself with my favourite Fish N Chips @ Spicez, bawled, laughed it off and decided to let it go there and then.. Now I gotta think of my next step.. like, what now? What's next? Kita merancang, Tuhan sajalah yang tentukan.


Okay so I've got an exam this Saturday, gotta keep mugging as for now. Yall take care! <3