take it.

I can't possibly please everybody. It is what it is.




OMG four datelines to meet before friday. Later!

fyi.

I get chills down my spine whenever anyone address me as 'Nurul'. For two very simple reasons.. the people who call me by that name is my secondary school MATHS teacher and my dad's side of the family. Hahaha go figure!


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They make me nervous for no apparent reason at all.

You can quote me on this.

"The truth is, you can't possibly drop a person in a box full of sparkles and go OOH YOU'RE NOW A STAR! Some girls were born with glitter in their veins.. and they've been shining ever since. "

familiar face.

I feel for Afiqah. She deserves the spot. I guess this is why sometimes it's better to view the glass as half empty. So that, when the when the whole thing tumpah, we won't be as devastated in the end. Make sense, kan?

OH BOY AM I GLAD TO BE OUT OF THE SHOW OR WHAAAT! Hehehe. I wouldn't have done it any other way. Go and watch Jus again on Youtube.. Everything is written all over my face. My aunt thought I shouldn't have been so nonchalant about it.. Oh heck. I don't see it as an elimination, BOO HOO kinda thing.. cos we are the ones who got away! Haha. Leave it up to me to make the best out of everything.

Anyways, here's what I've learnt so far and I think this applies to all aspects of my life.


1. Set my own goals and standard, stand by my principles

2. Trying to fit into someone's template/format/mould is completely UNNECESSARY!

3. Keep working on craft - get better, get stronger




But if all else fails, I know that this is not the only thing I'm good at! haha. I can be such a badass sometimes... correction, sexy badass. ;)

Come what May.

Results out tomorrow.. and I still couldn't care less. OMG what is wrong right with me? I'm more egggcited about meeting up with the other finalists though.. We have loooads to yak about! Haha. It is soo fun to be around the people who share the same passions in life as you. Yay, us!

blah

Feeling extremely hormonal today.

zinggg!

I've created a Tumblr account (although I don't know what the hell for) and yes, Youtube too!




"Huh?? Apa tu Facebook?" - Sara Aqilah, this chick I met during Anugerah auditions

Now What?

I've been asked about next Monday, whether I'm anxious about the results.. and I know this might sound a little odd, but I'm feeling close to.. nothing. It's like I'm unaffected by it or something. I entered the competition not expecting much from it... and maybe that's the problem. Or perhaps that's a good thing? HAHAHAH!!







3 essays due this month... Retail therapy this weekend, WOOOT!

Besotted.

Exactly that.

Bang-able.

The last time I had bangs I was eight!

Everyone will notice, no one will know.

We all have one of those days when we feel lousy about ourselves, thinking that we're not good enough for someone or something. Today has been purrty overwhelming.. I sure felt the love! I am grateful to have the most incredible support system in the world.. They make me feel invincible when I'm invisible.





Bless their hearts.. I thank god for them.

Heal.

Healing..


Healing....


Healing...........






HEALED.

The trick is to keep on breathing.

A couple of people have let me down big time today. Almost got into a bitch fit after class but thank gaawd I remembered to breathe. Shit happens, I guess.. Gotta take the high road and let it slide this time. See, I am nice kan?









Payback's a bitch, though. Haha!

Call me crazy...

When I was up there on stage I remembered thinking, WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE?! I mean, just a few days ago I had my friggin' wisdom tooth extracted yanked out from my mouth like nobody's business, and here I am.. standing in the middle of East Point Mall auditioning for Anugerah... again?



WHAT. THE. HELL AM I DOING HERE?!



I keep telling myself this is not a good idea because -

A. The judges might think I'm stoned(LOL) cos I'm slurring my words
B. Malay singing competition.. Who are you kidding, Jannah?
C. *please refer to the point above




But then again, it takes a lot of courage to be this crazy right? Plus, I figured I've got nothing to lose.. I get to spend time with the people that I've been missing for months now. I still remember the last thing my late cousin asked me on FB, "Kak.. you joining which one? Idol or Anugerah?". Sedih, kan. Somehow, the auditions are oddly nerve-wrecking this year. My palms sweat a little more than they should, I'm distracted, I can't stop smiling and I blush like crazy...

it has got to be the painkillers, man! haha.




Round #2 * here we go again.