Tick Tock.

What's good? Okay I need to mug like crazy for the next week or so.. hope life's doing you good. As for me, I shall refrain from having too much durians! Haha. Very pleased with the marks I got for my essays.. Alhamdullilah. Theatre auditions in... 13 days!!!! Wooot

You don't know how long I have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight..
You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight..
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown..
Alone.

Not ready to make nice.

I'm devastated. Theatre auditions wouldn't be exactly what I envisioned it to be. This sucks. In addition to all that sucktion, the King Of Pop is gone. Sad.




Need to shop for emotions.

Barenaked.

I choked back my tears while singing to a friend and I could barely get to the chorus. I think we all can relate to this.. When words fail, music speaks right?

It's just so sad.. not because it's over a song by Miley Cyrus(!!!), but the fact that I had this dream for as long as I could remember. A dream that only a young child who uses her remote control as a microphone would understand. There is a little desperation in this hopeful heart, but only with amplified elegance. In my head, I have all these ideas. When I first learned how to berjinak-jinak with the guitar, my love for singing and songwriting all came together as a whole. Baby steps, I guess.. baby steps. Reaching for something in a distance, so close I could almost taste it.. But I also know that either way, ousted or in, you can't put a price on real talent. And that's a fact.


Tell yourself that no one can buy your drive.. no one.

Keep moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby..

For us.

This time round, I asked them for constructive criticism because really, I want to get better.. I want to be better. So I asked Ken for it.

I have 2 exam papers during the theatre auditions + camp.. thank god I've started revision last month. It's gonnabe a challenge, but I've been through worse. Don't let education get in the way of your learning. I soo did not wait three years to not make it again!

Either way, I'll live.

Let's go.

Today was rather interesting. It's Father's Day.. and even though my dad is not as expressive(not even close) as I am, he has taught me the importance of letting my actions speak for itself instead of just yak yak yaaaking away. You know what I mean, right? Haha.

Sometimes I feel my dad is the only one who gets me.. he was a musician. He's actually qualified to teach music. Sometimes I feel that because he knows so much, he doesn't want me to be a part of the industry. Perhaps it's his way of protecting me from 'disappointments' and what-not. Double standards is also a possibility. However, I never doubted the fact that he's been a fan since day one. So you can understand eh why that Awan Yang Terpilu vid makes me cry like crazy.

Hope I can do him proud tomorrow..

Speaking of which, my idea of a silent protest is not by not talking. I'll be using the same dress I was eliminated in during Anugerah for my Idol auditions. Enough said.


Audition in about 12 hours. I'll be tweeting! (:


http://twitter.com/_nuruljannah

What happens in my head..

Some of my feelings keep escaping
So I make it a joke
Nonchalant I keep on faking..
So my heart don't get broke
I'm in a big, big, big, big ocean..
In a tiny little boat
I'll only put the idea out there
If I know it's gonna float.

This brings the lols!

Killing time while waiting for the family to siap! Haha. Usually it's the other way round.

Hush Hush

i cannot suppress it any longer... oh dear god.

Le Sigh!

Last night at about 3AM in the friggin' morning, Cristie called. I'm a light sleeper so I pretty much had no other choice but to pick up the call lah. She asked me to log into my facebook account (at this point I was about to hang up on her) but she swore upon her parents that I'll love this "surprise". Cristie and some others actually made a fan page for me on Facebook! Like, OH MY GAAAAAAAAAAAWD.. whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!

This is by far the most sweetest thing a friend has ever done for me. To say that I was touched by this is an understatement!! I cried my eyes out for a good whole hour! I mean, I'm practically a nobody what.. So blessed to have such an incredible support system. ;' )

If you wanna check my page out, just go search for 'Jannah' under the Pages thingymajig. Or just click on the 2nd FB badge under 'The Lipstick Chronicles'.. it's on your far left.


So.... what should I do now? Be a fan of myself? weird!!!

Now What?

Singapore Idol called to confirm the timing for my next audition. 22nd June, 10:30 Am. Unfortch for us, we're only allowed to bring only 5 supporters. This is the least of my worries.. I have class at 3pm that day!

I have received the approval letter from Lim Kok Wing Uni this morning. Don't know what to make out of this.... yet. In all honestly, I like the idea of studying in KL. Heck, I love it there sampai tanak balik tau kadang2. To think about how close Abah was to buying a house at bukit antarabangsa years ago still drives me crazy. Adakah patut.. he settled on JB instead. Practical? Yes.. but what good does it do to me? Hehehe ;P

Dejavu.

The next round of auditions will be held @ Marina Bay Floating Platform in 2 weeks. I feel that the judges in our room were tougher to please so based on that alone, I'm pretty grateful. We were all intimidated at first but.. intimidation is my motivation, baby. Hehe. Ann Hussein was judging the other room.. auntie Ann, I mean! HAHAHAHAHAHA don't laugh eh! Family wedding next month.. dreading it after all that Anugerah thingymajig. I was interviewed by Hady(how weird is that) and he made me sing... SABO!!


But then again, tak seteruk performing in front of.. you know. that one is BIZARRE!


Butterflies-in-my-tummy-I-swear-my-heart-could-fly kinda bizarre lah! Hehehehe.
I've sang for the first lady before but the Anugerah auditions is like.. a recurring brainfart waiting to happen whenever I step on that stage!! Hahaha.. kekek.
Only God knows why.
;)